So, I had an idea last week, out of the blue, to make a New Years resolution. This is not something I normally do, at least formally, anyhow. I think we all have a tendency to reflect, assess, plan for change in the coming year. This was a declaration I made to a friend. I said I wanted to do yoga every day for a year.

Since the declaration, I've been thinking. Am I really going to do this? Can I do this? Why do I want to do this? I'm not even currently practicing yoga. I haven't regularly practiced for over a year and that was a half-assed attempt, really. I haven't been in a regular yoga practice for years. It's always something I mean to come back to, but I'll get in one night and then let it go. My issue is self-discipline, which is the reason I'm going to do this. Other than laziness, really, there is nothing getting in the way of practicing yoga every day. I have a crappy, used mat. I have a block. I have a belt. I have basic knowledge. These things can easily come together, daily, if I put my mind to it.

I have no aspirations to lose weight, pretzel myself into knot, wear a bikini in swim season (I will do it anyhow) or attract a suitable mate (I'm happily married.) I need to do this for me. I need to get back to that rock-solid core, eye-of-the-storm confidence I had when I practiced yoga regularly. I am not a competitive person, but I do compete with myself. I want to be better today than I was yesterday, and yoga is perfect for that. You can see, feel, touch the progress, day to day.

So, this is the plan. I will get on my worn-out, cat-clawed yoga mat every day. I will do what I can. I will document the process. I will change myself, from the outside, in.